Bet big or quit



You can think all of this is either luck or a curse, that time is ticking and opportunities just vanish, that I’ve already lived the best moments in my life or just I didn't take advantage of them.

After pursuing many things before I considered priorities in my life, now I realize it is OK not to accomplish everything I expected. Over the years, I attempted to get my life in order and become a functional adult, but after coming and going I've failed.

Maybe winning is not for me, but when I want to give up, there is something that motivates me to try one last time, and then the history repeats over and over again.

This daydreamer is used to fail more times than I remember, after 5 years each rejection hurts less. I've seen my friends, family, and job mates being successful, reaching goals and even winning this unfair game of life.

Anyway, it doesn't bother me at all, I'm happy of seeing them accomplish their dreams. Now another chance is coming, the DAAD scholarship in Germany. Will it be my winner card? It's hard to say.

I will gather the requirements and I will try again. It will be one of my latest attempts before my IELTS expires.

S.

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