April's review



The last month didn't start in a regular way, despite having the same amount of days as the others, after long weeks of thinking about it, we decided to euthanise my dog, Pinky who was almost 15 years with us was suffering from health-related problems,  during the last two I was giving him pills, taking care of his diet and cleaning routine, but time take its part and over the years my dog was declining.



It wasn't an easy decision, many memories came back to me, the desire to have with us a little more, but on the 2nd of April, we took the decision and said goodbye.



In the end, he had a peaceful farewell, I could say goodbye and give him to his creator, and I was fortunate to have him with me all of this time, may he rest in peace.



Over the days, I have been struggling with focusing, I was always scrolling my phone, thinking I was doing something productive when the only thing I did was avoid my reality. In the middle of April, I decided to delete my social media, I only preserved the message application and my email, all the rest were deleted, and my phone only has WhatsApp and Pinterest as unique social media apps. 



Days were improving, I could retake some meditation routines, and after a payment check was sent last month I could afford some expenditures, also I retook my gym routine. 



When In the middle of April, the government announced energetic measures to mitigate the electricity supply, meaning blackouts, these took between three or four hours every day, sometimes twice per day. It was complete chaos; many businesses, hospitals, schools, traffic lights, buildings and hundreds of homes were without energy for at least 4 hours daily.



For me, it was a challenging situation, it had been almost a week since I deleted social media, so I was used to having zero interaction with the online world. But now I needed to be more prolific with my time and do most until the next energy cut.



Over time, my mood improved, not to mention my focus, I could do more without feeling stressed or overwhelmed, but something that worsened was my allergies; those I had been struggling with for a while came back, my skin was dehydrated, I had sunken eyes, stomachaches, and often I woke up at the middle of the night to scratch my eyes due the itchiness.



I was tired of that, so I decided to make a medical appointment with a specialist,  he ordered me to take a bloodwork and stool test. It seems the problem is not so complex I was thinking, and I'm happy to start a treatment.



 When at the end of this month, I started to develop my business idea, something I was stagnant and hesitant to make real, I started my web solution business, and I received the support of my family and some tips to steam.



Although it was a hectic month, it was a special one too, one that made me cry and laugh, a month that made me feel confident but at the same time aware of the fragility of most things here.

 

S.


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