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For a couple of years, I was struggling with a lack of energy. I remember that I barely had no enthusiasm to do basic things that usually I did before.  I had no diet, but I must recognize that I used to walk and frequently run then. I usually consumed whatever food I found in the refrigerator. I was living stressful and constantly angry, I had a lot of thoughts inside my head, and over and over again, I neglected the idea of doing new things. I remember always struggling with problems like blood pressure or fatigue; despite living an active life since I was young, I constantly felt very unsatisfied. But, once I finished college, I was more conscient about my health, physical and mental health as well. I started to follow tips from various experts in the matter, and I went back again to training regularly, lifting weights and trying to eat as healthy and green as possible. It was not until 2020, when the pandemic did all of us dropped into a new era of panic and disorder, that I wi...

Last week, my most aged pet was sick, around 14 years old. He has been part of our lives and, of course, is part of our family. But, ageing is knocking on his health. I have been with him since I was 14 years old, and he was one of the few pets my family, especially me, have had a special connection with him. Many things changed throughout the years, but my pet was the only one who was always constant.  He created new descendants of little pets; nowadays, we have 4 pets (2 males and 2 females), and our house has always been full of life thanks to them. He always had a great physique; we usually walked with him, and he always was running on the trail. Now, we have to decide what kind of life we want to bring him; their health has worsened with the passing of the years. Every day we have to give him a pill to treat their thyroid and giving vitamins to try to improve their diet. I refuse to think that the time to say goodbye is closer, to say goodbye to the memories and beautiful thin...

While writing this post, I have in my head what kind of week I'm going to have, problems and possible solutions that I could do. Of course, it can sound exacerbated, but I'm the kind of person who plans everything with anticipation. These thoughts made me a methodic person and sometimes a kind of robot who never rests. The following week is still incoming, but I was concerned about the future. It is something I have tried to fix: being concerned about things that probably never happen. Recently I have found that problems can happen at all moments. It's not necessarily a bad thing; it is just that life it is. Wasting time about overthinking and concerning is one of the worst decisions I can make. It is entirely unnecessary and drains my energy and focus. Life is based on choices, and when we are conscious of that, we have the responsibility and the freedom to make the best decisions about our wellness. So, decide what time you want to spend dedicated to overthinking the futu...

Despite the recent events, I decided to stop planning most things I do. Instead, I simply let things happen. Once I learned this, I tried to maintain my mind occupied with other affairs like my job or doing exercise. I have noticed that my energy and focus increase significantly, which gives me an enormous advantage. Now, I have all my thoughts in order, and only I stop thinking when I need to take a break. In fact, when I start to work, I try to avoid thinking about other things. The prolonged walking along the streets at night fills my brain with positive thoughts and loads my body with energy; feeling the cold night breeze and seeing the people pass is something I enjoy a lot. There are moments when I've decided to take a long walk, around 30 minutes before returning to work. After all, what is the worst that could happen? I decided to do this regularly, and it works for me. At the end of the walk, once I return to do my activities, I see how my mind can do the work faster, effe...

Yesterday my friends and I were together towards a party 30 minutes from the city, without an idea of how to get a ticket to pass. Still, while we drove we started to talk about our life, projects and thoughts about life, it was a really good conversation, suddenly the trip was more satisfactory than the supposed party. When we reach a goal or an accomplishment, I realise we often feel empty and with a sensation of discontent. Often we focus only on the objective, and we forget the journey completely; life is based on experiences rather than goals. Then a long trip, Unfortunately, we didn't get a pass. But this time, the time I spent with my friends was more valuable than that party. We started to walk around the park and discuss how to create a new business or entrepreneurship. After a long time, I admit I was more focused on getting a "goal" and avoiding all distractors rather than enjoying the beautiful process of learning something different. Life always gives a secon...

A decade passed since I finished high school, and throughout these years, I learned, dropped, and many times I have given up. But, I must admit that the school years have been the best years of my life and left me with many lessons and friends I remember daily. In July of 2012, I finished all my high school years; after six years of taking classes there, I had to say goodbye to my friends and class. I remember with a mix of emotions. On the one hand, I wanted to finish because I had many troubles with the teachers and inspectors, but at the same time, nostalgia was knocking on the doors of my mind.  I was 17 then and barely had an idea what I wanted to do with my life; I was lost in my life, without north and waiting for the college season. Most of my close friends wanted to study out of the city, and when high school finished, they said goodbye too. My relationship with my friends and family was good; I had enough time to share with them and still took time to go to the gym. But, ...

Mid-year has passed, and in the last six months, I decided to begin doing new things and develop some abilities that I wanted to cultivate before, but I hadn't wanted to do it. When I started this year, I wrote a letter in which I put some aspects and purposes I really want to do throughout 2022. Many of these were really easy to apply and didn't require much effort at all, but many others were really challenging.  These seconds led me to many questions about how I wanted to do when I turned my 30s. Our time is limited, which only leads us to a short time to decide how we spend our hours and dedication. I realize now that I wanted to do many dreams when I was younger; perhaps I never get them. This can sound discouraging but, simultaneously, can be released; it Is like I left a ton of weight that I was carrying on my shoulders. Now, I recognize that I was living an irrational and maybe fictive life trying to satisfy not only my expectations but other people too. Maybe, many thi...

Today is the end of three long and, in some way, worthful work weeks. To summarize, I must say that passing time inside the bank facilities has advantages and disadvantages; many days, including the first week, resulted in being very difficult to adapt and take the pulse of this new job. I realized that I couldn't accomplish all things in one day alone, and it is more important to get good job partners than the abilities you can fetch. The pay is not so much, but I took this job because of the experience I can get throughout these few months inside the work. Since then, I have learned new things from my job team and surroundings. Time is relative; some days, I have felt like there is no longer time to do all I supposed I have to do, and on others, I have felt like the time was eternal. My focus and motivation are changing throughout the days, too; I realize that I can't waste my time thinking about useless things that can drain my energy and focus; instead, I can use that energ...