100 Days 🗓️


Yesterday, while checking out my laptop, I realized the year is over; three months separate us from 2024, so I decided to google the days until New Year's Eve. To my surprise, I found that it remains a hundred days until we celebrate again for another year.


That makes me wonder how I will invest these remaining hundred days. Will I do something significant during these last months? How will it end? I don't have the answer to these questions; only the time will tell whether or not I'll leverage this year.


During the first couple of months, I had a job, a stressful one, I have to say, but in my mind, I wouldn't have the idea of remaining there for so long. I had the goal of applying for scholarships, specifically the Swedish program scholarship; I was excited to apply and see what would come next.


Over time, the dream vanished, another rejection, starting from scratch and waiting for another vacancy. My job was becoming repetitive and stressful; the payment check was insufficient to supply the home necessities, so I started searching for other job vacancies.


May was my last month of working, and after days of thinking about it, I decided to resign and explore other options. I was sure it would take no longer until I found a new one. I completed a network certification then, and the outlook seemed favourable. Also, I applied for another scholarship, the Japanese government one. I went to Quito, spent some days in my friend's home and took the test, but I failed. 


Until now, that certification has been useless; although it allowed me an excuse to resign from my previous job, I was burning out. I decided to focus on my health and my forgotten language routine. Between June and July, I could attend my sister's graduation and some family gatherings and spend time with some friends, though this last has been tougher than expected.


During these last three months, I decided to retake my programming path; I got some interviews, but nothing serious until so far. 


After many ups and downs, headaches and resignation thoughts, I decided to take a breath, focusing on what was under my control. This last month, I will apply for my last chance this year to get a scholarship.


When I read since the beginning, it seems like this has not been my year, but anyway, there are bad strikes in life, too. So I decided to spend this day in my home, writing and watching my phone because, after all, it remains 99 days until the year ends. What could happen?


 S.

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