Daydreaming


In my college ages, I often used to dream about my future, how being my life if I... You know the rest of the story; I think everyone has had these fictions in which we are the protagonists of our lives and accomplished all our goals.


I was a daydreamer, and I refused the fact of leaving this habit; I constantly thought about it, but I didn't do anything about that. I saw myself as a superhero, just like a Marvel movie or a rock star who had everything he attempted at the end of the story.


These thoughts were reduced over time, and when I finished college, I barely had these thoughts. When I started to work, I hardly had time to worry about whether or not I had these. The dreamer had come to their end.


When I realised all the time I wasted having this conducts, I was ashamed of myself; I didn't have enough conscience of the split reality of fantasising. I am aware now that I was hiding my insecurities to stay in a comfortable zone, my thoughts.


Nowadays, I am more conscious about what I can do, and I can distinguish the 'unreachable' dreams that someday I believed I could get.


Part of growing and maturing is learning that life is not easy, and all things require effort and time to be reached. Maybe the young version of me was blinded by the satisfaction of believing everything is possible.




~S.


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