Renewing My Driver’s License



It was in 2019 when I decided to confront my fear of driving a car. Throughout my college years, I had my license but was unable to drive due to my anxiety about getting into an accident or damaging my parents' car.

During those years, I relied on walking or public transportation to get to places. Although my mom would occasionally give me the car keys, I was no longer interested in driving.

In my final year of college, however, I found myself needing to move from one place to another much more frequently. Juggling my thesis project left me with very little time, so I decided to change my mindset and take the car out again to practice my driving.

First, though, I needed to renew my driver’s license. I remember that day vividly; it was a strange time, as I was about to finish my studies and would graduate just a few weeks later. My sisters were busy with their classes, and my mom was at work.

For a brief moment, everything felt right. As I received my license, I reminisced about the first time I got it. I was 20 years old then, filled with insecurities, and reluctant to continue my studies. Back then, I realized how much my life would change. Now, reflecting on the years since 2019, I can see the many experiences I’ve had, the achievements I’ve made, and the opportunities I’ve lost.

Now, at 30 years old, I don’t have a car. My family dynamics have changed just as much as I have, and many things in my life are different. Fortunately, I still have the most important aspect with me—my family. When I receive my license again, I will think about all the possibilities that the next five years might bring.

S.

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