Unnatainalbe goals this year

I've been talking about my future goals, my past achievements, and my resolutions for the next year; now it is time to talk about the failures, mistakes, and elusive goals I couldn't accomplish in 2023.


Recently, I watched an Instagram post that suggested putting the nine most important areas in life on a map: Friends, body, mind, spirit, mission, money, growth, family, and love. On the map, you have to put a mark from 1 to 10, with 1 being the lowest value reached and 10 being the highest.


Quickly, I drew the map, figuring out that many of the fields were lower than the rest, which indicated to me that in the next year, I needed to focus more on those areas than others.


The lowest marks were the result of this year; many circumstances worsened the punctuation and unbalanced my chart. The fields that had lower punctuation were:


Growth: Unfortunately, I have been stagnant for many years; my chances to grow in this environment are scarce, and the competition is fierce. Despite my achievements, I can't fit in society, and as I get older, my chances to develop my career are harder.


Money: My economic independence is such a utopia. For now, I can't overcome the barrier of 600 dollars per month in a job. I decided to work as a freelancer, but for now, my skills are insufficient. I am not economically solvent. I'm still depending on my mother to survive. With no savings, income, or job, next year will be challenging.


Mission: Since I finished my career, I haven't figured out my mission for what I have come to, my passion. I have been thinking about doing different things to find my way. Don't get me wrong, my career is interesting, but I don't think that I am going to dedicate my life to doing the same activity.


Spirit: Since I started to meditate, my mood and focus have increased. However, I have not been constant in this practice; I need to focus, come back to my roots again, and plan a reachable schedule for my meditation practice.


Friends: As time advanced, my group of friends has shrunk; now, most of them are studying abroad, working, or living in other cities. Add the fact I spend most of my time sitting in front of a computer and mostly indoors, and the chances of knowing new people are minimal. Social media doesn't help; it only gives me a false idea of being connected with the world.


S.

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