Learn to live with enough.


Since I resigned from my recent job, I have felt uncomfortable and incomplete about my life; the idea of being someone productive and who can carry on a family is not an easy task. Despite that, I can't complain about my life. I have been privileged to have a fantastic family; despite our errors, we can rely on each other; my career, though some ups and downs, is just beginning, and the future looks more promising than the past.


Sometimes I fall into the error of judging my life and comparing it with others, trying to understand why I do not have the "successful"l that others have. I have been rigid with myself and my family sometimes, and I'm aware of that.


Recently, one of my best friends lost one of his relatives; he is an excellent professional and a better person; if I wanted to compare my life with his, he would pass me years of vantage. His loss made me realize that grief is a  part of life and that nobody has a perfect life anyway.


But why do I feel that my life has not been good enough? Maybe Im an idiot for thinking that. I started to realize the fortune I have in front of my eyes, my family, friends, my career, my dogs, and even the city and country I was born and raised.


Maybe many things were not perfect, but I wouldn't change it for anything. My past shaped my mind and the way I am. My family gave me everything they had to make me a better person and professional, and the country I was so critical of gave me an identity and a reason why I remain fighting despite injustices.


S.

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